Im alive! I really need to post in this thing more often. Not that I usually have an awful lot to say, my job takes up most of my time and theres rarely anything to report on.

Thor and I have been moved out for about a month now. Thank God. Things are going better between us now that I can come home to my sanctuary instead of household tensions every day. I thought we'd have problems making ends meet and I thought we'd argue over it, but its easier than I thought it would be. That said, I do have a huge overdraft to pay off, so Im selling art on ebay. Nice and cheap too, for originals.

It would appear that, despite having folks on my friends list, said folks cant read my friends only entries. This is bizarre. I wondered why nobody was commenting (bar Nina, why are the rules different there?)

It's been a while, hasn't it, chaps?

I rather fell off the internet and into the real world for a bit, there. My apologies. I then realised how much the real world pisses me off and fled back to the comforting folds of comparative anonymity like the god-forsaken hermit that I am

All subsequent posts will be friends only. There are too many witches abroad that would cackle with glee at this insight into my little world. Too much to hide from far too many. Too much has already been said here but theres little point in going back and hiding it all. It's already been picked over and turned against me. My own fault, I suppose, for having faith that people could handle an unveiled opinion, that egos weren't quite fragile enough to shatter so readily beneath the meagre force of a single contrary mind. My mistake </contempt>

I suppose this post is to find out if I still have an audience

1 Year!

I've been in a relationship for a whole year. Well, that was Friday, now Ive been in one for a year and a day, pretty much. Quite an achievement when you consider all previous relationships lasted 2 months. Nice. :P

So we ate chinese and drank my 21st birthday champagne

Dom is happy, heres to another year

Well, since my last post things have changed. Lots.

Had another huge argument with Ad shortly after I posted that last entry. It was pretty final. Scarily final. I'd like to say that it seems much better now but I dont want to jinx it. But it does. It really does :) Going to make a concerted effort not to get so aggravated when he's being his uncommunicative self, cos that seems to start the rows more often than not. Im the kind of person who, when upset, talks before she thinks. This exacerbates an already unstable situation. Im going to get into the habit of, when upset, reaching for a notebook and taking out my upset on that instead. Then, when the time is right, I can approach the source of my upset in a calm and rational manner

That sounds progressive, ne?

In light of the 'patching up of things' Ive been looking after Ad since the weekend as he came back from London with the lurgy. I pump him full of lemsip and cough mixture and what do I get for my trouble?

Infected :P

I have a really bad earache, a throat that is forever dry and a head that feels like its been filled with rice pudding. Thanks Ad, I know you love me really 9_9

God, I really fucking hate my tutor. We have tutorials on Mondays and every single week he screams at me. He just tells me off like Im 5. This week he told me off for not having enough ideas. I've got loads of ideas, I didnt realise he wanted the shit ones too ¬_¬ Then he told me to bugger off (yes, he said that) and come up with a new idea every half hour. That didnt start the day particularly well. It didnt help that Ad had said he'd give me a ring once Uni was over for the day so I could go round and enjoy the last little bit of time we had together before he went off to London for the majority of the week, Turns out, he skived for the day and didnt ring me. I ended up going round and asking him whether he intended to speak to me at all. I ended up crying because it was such an awful day. Ad being characteristically uncommunicative and Graham (tutor) being a total hack. I'd like to learn how to skin bots in Quake just so I can make them look like Graham. Every time he upset me I could go home and turn him into meat :)

Speaking of games, one of my essay questions for this term involves critically analysing how narrative is constructed in games. Never has an essay question come so naturally to me. I was chatting to my lecturer for ages about how on some games there really isnt a narrative and on others, its so painstaking that you're pretty much led by the hand the whole way through it... Just went on and on really, but Im so psyched about writing it. My plan is to spend tomorrow round Ad's (he'll still be in London and I have a key) 'researching' the essay. This will basically take the form of me playing as many of his games as I can and 'writing notes'

Doesnt get much better than that, really

Well, its been a pretty damn profitable weekend ^_^

I think I have enough books to keep me from getting bored now. Gotta go catch a train back to Ponty in an hour or so and its the waiting thats a total pain. Im bored out of my skull. Theres not enough time for me to actually properly do something, but theres too much to spend sitting at the foot of the stairs, waiting

Im less than pleased that I have to go back to my room, where my computer may or may not be working. It's all very limbo-y. Schroedingers cat (spelling? dont care :P)

ARG!

Guess what I did last night?

I went to see Serenity *cackle*

I was so surprised at how packed the place was, it was amazing. The whole thing was amazing. I laughed, I cried, I subconciously decided I would go see it once a week until it finishes its run. Yes, it's that good. Need to go watch Firefly now. Oh, the glee

Also, Im still losing weight, somehow. It's not going as quickly as it was, but I'm frankly surprised I'm not gaining weight at a hideous rate. Especially considering how many BLT sandwiches Ive been consuming of late. The full fat ones too, not the 'good girl' versions. If Im gonna sin, Ill sin all the way ^_^

Ok, thats bizarre. Even though I've practically starved for a fortnight, in that time it would seem I havent dropped a single lb and yet I've lost 2 inches from my waist. How the hell is that even possible?

Bugger it, at least my effing jeans fit a bit better now ^_^

Here are the instructions:
1. Go into your LJ’s archive.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag 5 people on your friend list.

Whether it's true or not, I never tire of hearing stuff like that

Yes, well, this was in reference to someone telling me I was pretty. 3 years on and I'm still the same vain, self centred, twitching bag of neuroses I always was

I'm tagging anyone who cares *shrug*

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Last night I slept on the sofa cos I was bored, annoyed and stressing. Yay. I graduate this year and bugger knows what's going to happen then. I dont like my chances of falling into an animation job straight from uni, they're very slim, given that the tutor you can generally rely on to get you in with one of his many contacts, really doesnt like me. Not much I can do about it. Trying to get on his good side meets with disappointment. The ideal situation after its all over with is to move into the room below Ad's and pay a pittance for rent and no bills. I imagine that means I have to sell my soul to Tesco in return for enough cash for that and food, once it's all been taxed away by my shiny new, no-longer-a-student bracket

I weighed myself yesterday. Around 150lbs. I'm 5'2" so thats basically too damn heavy. My "ideal weight" is meant to be 125 (according to "experts" who dont know the first thing about my body structure) I'd say I didn't look 25lbs overweight. It's all bollocks anyway, I don't remember the last time I weighed anything less than 135 so I'm happy to go back to that. All I'd have to do is cut out fat, just like I did before. A diet of fruit & fibre and tuna noodles it is then. Come back in a month and lets see how hot I am then

17 days until my birthday. 21. What a cruel age. I'm no longer 20 then, im officially "in my 20s" and that can mean anything from "fresh out of full time education" to "wrinkly bitter old wench approaching 30" And we all know that life ends at 30. It aparently begins at 40 though, so Im not sure how that's supposed to work

Im sad, people. Cheer me up :( Perhaps I can convince Ad to bond with me over Planescape Torment later on

Generally it annoys me with just how misguided it is. When will they realise that just because I have a masculine name, I dont require Viagra for 25% off. I dont, in fact, need any medications for any amount of money, because I have the good fortune of living in the UK, where the glorious NHS will actually give me these heathen drugs for free should I *really* need them. No, I don't need or want a fuckfriend. I dont care how many times you promise to throw me on the floor and take me roughly from behind, I have a BOYfriend who'll do all that and more. He's a good boy, I'd like to keep him on the payroll.

Occassionally the spam crosses the boundary into all out hi-larious, as the one I got just now has: Apparently before Im 22 a miracle can solve all my problems. A closer look reveals that if I spend $25 on one book, I can find out how to chat to angels and learn that my entire life every last one of the countless hundreds has been waiting for me to drop them a line. Sweet. If I actually thought the celestial hosts held me in such high regard I may have been tempted by that promise. That is, until I read the "sample secrets" paragraph. Turns out that I can whine to Michael, The Angel Of Peace if I want tranquility. All well and good, but the bombshell is that no amount of praying will get an answer from him unless you happen to be wearing a certain colour.

Who knew angels were so shallow?

Last night I made a character on WoW to help Ad work out some Alliance<>Horde translations. I rather enjoyed it, Im ashamed to say. Anyway, some dude sent us this link: http://americaninlebanon.blogspot.com/2005/07/backstroke-of-west.html and there was much laughter to be had by all.

That is all

After watching charlie & the chocolate factory again, I've come to the conclusion that If I could somehow befriend Danny Elfman, I wouldnt need to stress over music for my 3rd yr film. Fair play, he's the man! ^_^

Me and Ad made chicken tikka for dinner. Woulda been awesome if the sauce was wetter. More cream next time. I also need to learn how to cook rice properly. Ever time I try it it always comes out sticky and slimy. Why? Should I wash it before I cook it? Not stir it, ever? Bah, Im so *not* domesticated ^_~

Me and Addy went to see Johnny Depp dipped in chocolate you know the film I mean ^_^ Verdict? Frigging awesome! I have to say I wasnt really feeling Depp as Wonka when I saw the trailer, but when taken in context he is utterly adorable. Where the original Gene Wilder kind and fatherly, Depp is just fuck off nuts. He's really sinister in an endearing, naive way. Typical Tim Burton *glee* It's made painfully obvious that Wonka's whole plot is to pick off the kids one by one in a deliciously cold and calculated way. It tickled me. I wanna go see it again. ^_^

Also, things are looking up on the job front. Someone may be hiring me to do some storyboards providing my most recent ones are up to scratch. Apparently if my storyboarding skills are equal to my illustration, I'll do nicely. So that's pretty sweet

Yes, it's finally happened, I've finally tried it out, and I love it. It gives the finish of Painter but without the entirely counter intuitive interface ^_^

So yeah, here's the first ever thing I doodled in opencanvas. I'm fairly pleased. Lookie

Ok, I'm about to go to bed. Ive done nothing but draw all day and now, as well as being sick of the sight of Photoshop, my hand kills.

On the plus side I got a fair bit done. I designed and made some business cards. All I need to do now is print them off. I also made a new site layout, go see >>



Yup, well and truly shattered, night night

After months of total artistic apathy, I finally got off my arse and drew something. Good to know I can still crap out a picture

go see, comment, and commission yours truly ^_~

the Wit (52% dark, 34% spontaneous, 38% vulgar)

your humor style: CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean you're pretentious. You realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that the Simpsons' philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor and most other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat. I guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer. Your sense of humor takes the most effort to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my opinion. Also, you probably loved the Office. If you don't know what I'm talking about, check it out here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/theoffice/. PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 36% on dark You scored higher than 15% on spontaneous You scored higher than 67% on vulgar

Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on OkCupid Free Online Dating

Suh-weet. What did we expect? Im British ^_~

Adam thought it would be fun to walk from Pontypridd to Cardiff today. It's about 14 miles and while this scared me he was so keen I felt bad refusing. All in all it took 4 hours to walk it. I cant believe how much my toes and head hurt by the end. Once we arrived we went to see Wedding Crashers (Owen Wilson remains adorable ^_^) and after that we hit KFC to replenish body mass ^_~

I didn't realise how badly my face had burned until I got back and looked in a mirror. I complained to Ad and he said it was "cute in a soft and windswept way"

That man is gold ^_^

Course, it destroys my Gawth pallor ^_~

Forgive the 'summary' (no, not summery) tone of the forthcoming entry. It's been a while since I last posted. Yes Im aware that its my own fault that you'll be deprived of the juicy details but I dont believe for a second that any of you really care anyway :p

So, I've pretty much moved in with Ad for the summer. Someone needs to stop him trying to BBQ himself like he did a couple weeks ago. I laughed once I realised he was ok. He tripped over his own feet, the clever lad. Im a horrible person...

In a few seconds flat I learned how to make deceptively complex looking things with beads. Yay for mindless and theraputic handicrafts and proving to myself that Im not a useless and talentless steaming pile of goo. ^_^

Now to see if I cant make some cash out of my new trick

*sigh* Dont know what to do with myself. Year is essentially over so Ive got very little to do with my life now. Ho hum. Yesterday I got so bored of watching Ad play bloody World of Warcraft that I drew a cougar. Decided to test out some nice cheap pencil crayons. Really kinda chuffed with that one. I can only draw one pic like that a day because the pressure I had to exert upon the pencils caused my thumb to shed chunks of skin and turned the tip of my index finger into something resembling a bum (yay, Bumfinger!)

While in the middle of drawing it, Ad went to Thorntons and bought us Eden choccies and all was right with the world again. Mmm... decadent.